Chan Luo Er (it’s pronounced as Ruo er though. hardly anyone gets it right)
♥ 14.04.1990 ♥
luoer.chan@gmail.com
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i sincerely believe:
1) winnie the pooh = voice of reason.
2) horror flicks are good for you
3) milk over booze
4) intriguing books over chicklit
5) sitcoms over gossip girl
and i know that someday, david beckham's coming for me (he so wants me he just doesn't know it yet)
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Lit yesterday evening was okay. it's one of those, i-can-pass-but-i-rather-pass-well kinda thing? i have never failed lit so i hope lit doesnt fail me (i still love you!)
sidenote: 5pm papers are very draining. i much prefer 9am papers. that said, walking in to the hall was actually kinda exhilarating. i had a rush that was similar to the A levels. HAHAH.
been attempting to clock full-daylight study days last week and kinda, sorta manage to. so to reward myself (any excuse to do so), i caught Paranormal Activity after Lit. what.a.piece.of.shit. honestly? snoozefest. and utter waste of time/money. only saving grace was that i caught it with Izzy Liyana, who is currently asleep in my bed :D
i know i should be at the library doing productive things that will contribute to my GPA but i'm so lazy. that and i can't bear to wake Izzy up -she looks so cute sleeping! sian. lesbian tendencies soooo not in check.
Thursday, November 19, 2009,
if a song...
...could get me you
she's one-half of the now defunct M2M (don't tell me you've never listened to Pretty Boy, Mirror Mirror or the Pokemon Season One's theme song ).
cute song, cute lyrics. cute video and cute girl. nothing to not like; though, i must confess i consider the placards slightly rip-offish.
anyhow, a dose of fluffy pretty pink cotton candy swirls. here's to making your exam week slightly better! :D
Wednesday, November 18, 2009,
adam, oh adam
luoer says: (PM 09:58:34) okay
luoer says: (PM 09:58:36) go ahead
Adamski says: (PM 09:58:41) i will!
Adamski says: (PM 09:58:49) dont you dare stop me!
luoer says: (PM 09:59:05) honey, no one's standing in your way
Adamski says: (PM 09:59:46) you're just trying to mindfuck me now
Adamski says: (PM 09:59:55)
with your sweet disposition and wide toothy smile
Adamski says: (PM 10:00:19) whatever luo er!
luoer says: (PM 10:00:22) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
x.x
tmr's my first paper and i just spent my morning at Starbucks getting a caffine high and playing with the most adorable caucasian baby ever-
with a mess of soft blonde ringlets that stuck out in every possible way, stubby chubby fingers that were waving at me AND adorable chuckling and gurgling emitted due to ballon Starbucks employee gave her,
HOW NOT TO BE DISTRACTED!
i just melted into a puddle of happiness, love and goo.
but i digress, everything is going to be okay in the end. and if it's not okay, it's not the end. HAHAH. so, we'll see how tmr goes. hopefully everything would be good and last minute mugging would pay off a little.
fingers crossed. toes too.
Monday, November 16, 2009,
Saturday on a Monday
studied at Thompson Plaza's Starbucks with the best roomie in the world today. was vaguely productive- i think we can make this work. hahah. we're meetingz tmr morning at AMK library.
i <3 green tea lattes alot. grin.
and, purely to destress (not to distract you from books okay);
Taylor Swift on SNL. super hilarious. i love Saturday Night Live.
yawn. good night world :D
Sunday, November 15, 2009,
lookin' sideways
not a very productive day but i've managed to, kinda, sorta, finish up the research topics for my COM203 exam- though i have this niggling feeling at the pit of my stomach that everyone else is like infinitely more prepared than i am. i'm just gonna cross my fingers and hope that it's enough.
i did a couple of chapters for my marketing elective. 5 chapters down and 15 more to go by monday. thank god it's open book.
oh yeah, i think i've neglected to mention that next monday, the 23rd of nov, i have 3 papers to sit for; 2 of my core modules (COM201 and COM203) and my marketing elective (MB103). hahah. oh well. at least once monday is past i'll breathe easier. optimism is key. grin.
my first paper is 19th nov, this coming thursday. it's my literature elective: Magical Realism (HL808). it sounds damn cool but i assure you classes have nothing to do with concocting potions or spells and waving wands around. but it is pretty fun. i do have a pretty long history loving lit. please let lit love me back once again.
then after killer monday would be another core module, COM204, on 25th. last and totally the least, would be my language elective, the one that's been causing me so much grief, korean, the day after.
then the exams would be overrr and i can go celebrate Samuel Yu's 19th (belated), Sonia Mao's 19th(belated) and Toh Ming Xuan's 20th :DDDDDD
p/s am currently obsessed with Lenka. her songs have a very whimsical feel to them :D
slippin'
i'm slipping.
i didnt do so hot for the last couple of quizes. initially i was kinda bothered about it, then i went all flippant and, "ah, fuck it"
what's up with your attitude luo er. seriously. the girl who used to cry cos she didnt get enough As is so gone now. (yes, i know. i'm was a loser. but at least i was a loser who had a sense of purpose) damnit. now i'm not even motivated to study for the end of term exams.
i'm first and foremost a student. remember that girl.
get your shit together.
Saturday, November 14, 2009,
holding out
so yesterday, i got to know a new friend better. it's always exciting getting to know people. even more or if they are especially intriguing. i like people who make me think. anyhowz, we got to talking about relationships and such.
he asked me: "do you still expect to be swept off your feet?"
and i was about to say no, because the conversation leading up to the question was jaded and matter-of-fact, littered with stuff like, "i don't see a point in getting together (even if the people in question are wildly in love now) if i don't see it working out in the long-term." adult-like stuff.
when i surprised myself,
" yes."
nice guys finish last
oh before i forget; i've been meaning to post this up;
Chelmin posted this up and when i told her how my guy friends always bemoan the fact that, you know, nice guys finish last, she told me to share it with them.
so here you go.
[...] you want to know why nice guys finish last? It’s because they aren’t willing to take a chance, they’re too tied to their rules. They see their girl at her most vulnerable moment, and instead of doing what they perceive as a dick move, they put their arms around her and they hold her. They listen to her weep and they don’t take control of the situation. She’s too precious to cut off. Let her weep.
Let me tell you this: nothing makes a broken woman feel more beautiful than to have a man swoop in and push her up against a wall to tell her how much better she is than that. To kiss her, I mean really kiss her, regardless of what she might think about that. You know why nice guys finish last? It’s because when a guy named Bayne leaves you for no good reason and you feel like you’ve been reduced to nothing, my nice guy won’t come over and say the things I really need to hear to understand that he loves me, I mean really loves me.
Us ladies, we know we’re beautiful, we know we’re intelligent, we know we’re worth it and we’ll find “him” someday. What we really need to hear and more importantly feel (at that moment — from you, the nice guy) is that we’re sexy, that our inner organs that separate us from you guys are actually worth something. That we’re so beautiful that you can’t and don’t care whether or not that kiss you’ve so desperately wanted to plant on us is going to ruin our friendship.
We want you, the nice guy, to rebel against your rules and just do what feels right. Take control of the situation and tell us that this is fucking it, you are in love with me. You are so in love with me that you are so unbelievably ready to ruin our friendship for a chance at love. That you are willing to pick up that bat and attempt to ball out of the fucking stadium.
Because either you strike out or you hit a home run. No one wants to sit in the dugout.
but you don't. you sit in the dugout and you tell us that we’re pretty, and not fat. That we’re worth it. And that Bayne is just stupid and doesn’t know what he’s missing.
You’re too nice. You’re too good of a friend. Be a man. Make the call. Try your best to force us to love you. Because in the end, you’re right. Nice guys do finish last. So how about you buck up and become something else. Because otherwise you’re going to lose us, you’re going to lose me.
Nice guys finish last because they’re pussies."
one of life's greatest mysteries debunked.
then again, was having lunch with Kay Wee and Ahmad the other day and when i showed this to them, they were telling me how guys can never win and promptly listed out all their arguments.
i'll save their arguments for another day because it's gonna take me a while to organise it all and come up with proper arguments. HAHAH. for now, i'll make a pathetic stab at hitting the books.
the end of my first semester in university is coming to an end! helloooo holidays!
but first, exams.
pfffft.
Thursday, November 12, 2009,
take you down
i wish people would stop undermining me that much. but in a way i'm glad, cos no matter how defeated or scared i feel, i will try that much harder just to keep it together.
optical illusions
i like how soapy bubbles glow iridescent.
i just want to sparkle for a moment before i fizzle out and die.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009,
martians = earthlings
it's funny how we fear the unknown. funny how we regard the foreign, the unfamiliar, the strange with uncertainly and much trepidation.
exams, people, situations. they're all one and the same. once you get around to it/them, you'll realise that hey, it wasn't so hard after all and feel foolish for being such a wuss earlier.
so just plunge in. take risks. there's nothing to lose and everything in the world to gain.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances. And how it’s really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you’re always glad you took it.
— Scrubs
p/s Scrubs used to be one of my favourite sitcoms till it got damn retarded in the later seasons.
off to hit the books. study hard people! <3
a break in routine
so not the time to go swooning over little schoolgirl crushes.
but in my defence, i feel rather adequately prepared (ha. double ha.) for my COM203 test tmr.
sexams start 2 thursday from now. so sexiting. the quicker i get them over with, the quicker i can go and play. okay, i'll amend that. the quicker i can play without guilt trips. in the midst of all the studying, tmr is Geek Day at WKWSCI. so basically our entire school's gonna be dressing up as geeks. i approve. for as long-time readers will know, i truly subscribe to the belief that the clothes maketh the man-
"if you dress smart, you'll feel smart and thus you ARE smart."
-Chan Luo Er
check out an old post on getting straight As for the A Levels --> click
yes, i really am too free.
time for bed! (:
Saturday, November 07, 2009,
the passage of time
"Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mum was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up."
-Anonymous
when i was in secondary school, i was in awe of people who were in junior college. they seemed all worldly and wise in their french braids and sneakers.
when i was in junior college, i was fascinated by the university students and their no-uniforms rule, their long term breaks and incredibly exciting exchange programs.
when i was in junior college, i couldn't believe i've turned 18. i didnt feel any different. not wiser. not less frivolous. needless to say, i was profoundly disappointed.
at all stages of your life, people will ask, so what do you aspire to be in the future, what do you want to do. what do you need to do.
the difference between want and need.
i've always shrugged their questions off with a smile and mutter something about asking me when i'm 16. then it became 18. then now, 21.
though now i wonder if people just go through life not knowing what they want out of it at all.
we study in pursuit of the paper chase. the qualifications nab us a somewhat decent job for us to forge a living. we need cash to live. we use the excess to purchase material things we do not need. things that we want. we crave more things. so we work harder.
the above cycle is not unknown to mankind. because as every single one of us, from that high-flying CEO who barely takes the time to talk to his kids, to your literature teacher who spends all day managing a class of incorrigible ingrates, knows, that's the way life goes. there doesnt seem to be an easy way out of the system. so we conform.
if i could have my way, i'll put flowers in my hair and go dancing in the fields.
but a mind is a terrible thing to waste.
the no goal, no aspiration, no ambition way of life will eventually get to me. that, and responsibilities, how can you ditch your aging parents, your siblings, ie. people who rely on you emotionally or financially, just to fulfill some selfish need for hedonistic thrill?
so i'll study. i'll conform.
and cliches amongst all the cliches, to just do the darn best i can and make the most of it all. i'll give it a decent shot. if i get my As. good. but if i don't. so be it. i've tried. and there is so much more to life. at the end of the day, when it's your turn to dance with the grim reaper, what do you want to take away with you?
tell me was it worth it.
(i've realised that everytime the exams draw near. i'll write an angsty post not unlike this, as i did for the O's and the A levels both. it's just to occupy the time i should be studying instead of blogging. HAHAH)
much lovin'
pulled an all-nighter doing nothing constructive. had much lovin' from the girls though. so all's good (:
we spent the night being silly and talking about stuff that hit pretty close to home. i'm quite glad for them.
“So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it, if it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it’d be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.”
you don't have to understand why. just know that yes, some rearrangement of perspectives.
oh yeah, parents' belief that i'm lesbian was reinforced after they drove past when i was sending Sonia off into a cab- i was rearranging her hairband to brush hair off her face. HAHAHAH.
Izzy and i went to play swings after. i like being on swings. the heart-dropping, pulse racing high derived is reminiscent of falling in love. but too high, too fast for too long gets you nauseous and woozy after. my point exactly.
Tiffy's asleep on my couch right now. yawn. i think i'll join her.
bye world. i'll see you again.
Thursday, November 05, 2009,
oh bother
nothing at all actually.
which is the problem. am rather disgusted and appalled at my distinct lack of urgency in view of the upcoming semester one exams.
Monday, November 02, 2009,
TO DO
the engine is stalling. someone needs to kickstart it.
just for 3 weeks luo er. c'mon.
Friday, October 30, 2009,
someday, i'll regret this
self-fulfilling prophecies.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009,
just because
i <3Andy Warhol.
He fascinates me to no end; it's not just his work but his larger than life personality as well. he makes me chuckle- there are a couple of super retarded quotes of his floating out there in cyberspace. go check them out. the strangest thing of all is that, they make sense, in a warped twisted sort of way, even in the context of society today.
(to Sonia, Kimy and Izzy: get your mind out of the gutter! grin)
anyhows, today's been a relatively good day!
cue bursts of sunrays, blooming flowers, dazzling displays of song and dance :D
initially i was dreading today because:
i had to start off the morning with a COM204 tutorial by MsBala, whom CS students will know as being strict, unforgiving and especially scathing in remarks
following which there is Korean tutorial, super painful for me on normal days, a quiz was slated to take place. double whammy.
then, there's marketing tutorial where it's the final presentation (read: biggest weightage) and my group was still scrambling to get our act together over Skype last night.
BUT things have a way of working themselves out. that and the fact that life gives us a break every now and then. grin
Ms Bala skipped tutorial today (citing a heavy workload. like wtf. hahah) and assigned work online, so my group worked out the details and headed to the Macs in school for breakfast.
As for Korean, we still had that quiz but class was pretty okay today. here is where the theory of relativity comes into play; today was better than most days. so yay!
Marketing was good! my group has a way of pulling our presentations off so i was just being my usual kiasu and anxious self when i fretted about it earlier. hahah.
